Day 69 - March 10, 2010

And so Colin had come down, delighted to be needed. - The Various by Steve Augarde

Requests for favors don't always come at the most convenient times. I might be busy with something else. Or dozing off. I might forget to feel flattered that someone is depending on me. I might not be tuned in to how good it feels to be needed. If someone asks me for a favor today, I'll try to give the right answer.

Today I am playing with Katherine! We're going to paint the town blue and pink and bronze and turquoise! Who knows what we will dooooo?!

We're watching America's Next Top Model. It's so fun!

"You should know who Perez Hilton is. Just saying."

Oh, Tyra.

So I was sleeping this morning and my mom was like, "It's your turn to take out the dog!" So I got up and took the dog out, and then went back to sleep. I think that was the favor I did. Without too much grumbling.

Also, I am doing Katherine a favor by giving her the night of her LIFE at my house tonight. So I'm writing this before the fun happens, since I'll probably be really tired at the end of the night. I have no clue what we're doing. Burger King for milkshakes, Jimmy's house to see Jimmy, playing some games, watching some movies.. We will see! :)

So do me a favor, and SHUSH. Because you (girls on Top Model) are being stupid. Until tomorrow!

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Day 68 - March 9, 2010

"It wasn't long after that when television antennas started to sprout from the rooftops like weeds in the springtime. And the more they grew, the fewer boys and girls came out to listen to my stories." - Kamishibai Man by Allen Say

When I'm not plopped in front of a computer or video game, am I plopped in front of a TV? Have I been duped into thinking TV is the only way to admit stories into my life? What other forms of storytelling am I missing just because I refuse to click the Off button on the TV remote? ... Click.

I don't watch TV. Just sayin'. I never watch it at school, only when I'm home. Today, instead of watching TV, I went to church, went shopping with my mom and sister, cleaned my room, and had friends over. So that was pretty good. And I'm sitting in front of the TV now, but it's off.

I'm frustrated. Very much so.

Wish I could control the weather.

Not the weather. People. Don't know why I said weather. I'd like to be able to control people. Not in an evil way. Just so I could not be so frustrated.

I think I need to go to bed, soon. There's no TV in the bedroom!

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Day 67 - March 8, 2010

If we cannot serve in one way, there is always another. - The Door in the Wall by Marguerite de Angeli

There are opportunites all around me, good things needing to be done. Maybe I just haven't been seeing them. Today I'll look in different places.

Today I brought breakfast to some people I care about. I don't think it was really a service, since.. It was just some boys I know. Although, one of them forgot to set his alarm, so my text telling him I was coming over did wake him up for class.

Today was a wonderful day with Josh! We went to Krispy Kreme for breakfast, brought breakfast to my boys, and then walked around Richmond having fun together :) And it was beautiful! Warm and sunny and fun!

I baked pies today, three of them! I cooked egg-tatoes, too. I drove all the way to Richmond, and even parked on Cary Street, in between two cars (That's actually a pretty legit thing to do, especially well)! I feel like a big girl :)

"I want to talk to you."

"The last time we talked, Mr. Smith, you reduced me to tears. I promise you it won't happen again."

Yes, please. Let's talk. About real life things. Okay? Thank you!

But until then, I will try to do good things. And until then, I'm going to go to sleep. Goodnight!

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Day 66 - March 7, 2010

"Mom, I found this dog sitting all by himself. Can I keep him?" - Can I Keep Him? by Steven Kellogg

OK, so maybe I want a pet. But how about what the pet wants and needs? Am I ready and willing to take responsibility? Or will I dump it onto my parents when the novelty wears off? I'll hold off pleading my case until I have the right answers to these questions.

Yeah, I already have a dog, though. So this is not quite relevant. Today was a good day, despite the fact that.. I am confused, and me and Emil had nothing to do all night. We did talk a lot, which was good. And I'd hope that I'm confused in a good way. But probably not.

Anyway. I really wish I hadn't given up Facebook for Lent. It's more difficult this year than it was last year, because last year I could just see people in person. Now it's Spring Break, so I want to connect with people that are here, so I can see them, and keep in touch with Emory folks, because I kinda like some of them. But I don't know. I'm gonna keep not going on. I suppose I'll just have to call people or something. Haha, crazy talk, I know.

So. Don't try and keep a puppy. It rarely works. Night!

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Day 65 - March 6, 2010

Never laugh at anyone's religion, because whether you take it seriously or not, they do. - The Long Secret by Louise Fitzhugh

Whether or not I believe in God - whether I go by the name of Christian or Jew or Muslim or whatever - I will grant everyone else the respect that I expect them to show me.

I have laughed at someone's religion; namely, (only I'm not naming any denomination) one concerning a puppet show that was slightly strange. But I don't do it to anyone's face. I'm not going to make judgments/laugh about something that I don't do/understand to the people who do whatever it is that I find strange. I'd probably want to know about it, anyway. (Not having an example makes my generally vague statements even worse. Sorry about that.)

I also don't want anyone to do the same with me. I want to go to church; I like going to church. Mostly when I'm at home. So it's nice when I can do that.

I don't really think I have anything else to say about this, so. I'll go to bed so I can be bright-eyed for church tomorrow. Night!

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Day 64 - March 5, 2010

My master fails to notice, Though I know that he is smart, The incalculable sadness Deep within my dragon heart. - "I Am My Master's Dragon" The Dragons are Singing Tonight by Jack Prelutsky

Today I will be wary of appearances. I will make no assumptions about others - except that there is more to them than meets my eye.

I don't think people do this about me. They just assume.

I am unhappy tonight. I will be going to sleep very very soon and hopefully entering a (much brighter and with less evil things and chase scenes) Wonderland, like Alice.

By the way. If your initials are HMR or E(L)MR, I would rather you stop reading this blog. Thank you very much.

Anyway. There isn't much to say. People make assumptions all the freakin' time. So, I guess, don't. And goodnight.

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Day 63 - March 4, 2010

"I just felt like... like everyone was looking at me, expecting great things, and that no matter how well I played, it wouldn't be good enough." - Boys in Control by Phyllis Reynolds Naylor

Of course I don't want to disappoint people - or myself - with a poor showing. And that's why I will practice concentration as well as performance. So that when the time comes, it will be just me and my task out there, doing our best, letting expectations take care of themselves.

I can't believe I almost forgot to do this. It's 4am right now. I was in bed, about to fall asleep, and then I thought, OH NO! I forgot my blog.

I think today has something to do with me finishing the yearbook. So it's optimistic for me, which is very good.

It's 4:03 and I can't sleep, without you next to me I toss and turn like the sea.

Do you know why I'm awake right now? Because of the highlighter party. Which I'm sure I'll be able to talk about when it's not two and a half hours from when I need to get up.

Awesome.

By the way, I love Britt Morgan and I will miss my grandbig very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very much.

And now..



I'm going to not disappoint myself right now, and go to sleep.

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